God is good all the time. We are the bad ones, and that is why that statement at times may not seem true. Here in Zambia, we pick up orphans all day. They sneeze on their hand and then come running up to you, expecting you to hold it. I just smile and look up to God and laugh, after the initial cringe. Orphan snot appears to be on a whole new level compared to people snot. It just grosses me out more, but you laugh and play and sing songs all day. They are great (the kids), if you are tired and sick and lazy. You can pick one up, for many are quite small, and just hold them. There is something very special about holding a young orphan in your arms and praying for them. Love is felt there. It is a special kind of Love, which I wish I perceived more. I am very tired. But I suppose if I had just got done hiking ten miles through a desert. I would be much more tired than I am now, so that makes me think I am really not that tired now. My head hurts a little, but that too is a passing frivolity. (Thought- If I assume that pains to the body are of minor notice, does that mean I count pleasures to the body of a similar minor notice. New Thought- Are pleasures to the body of any real concern. Certainly severe pains to the body are of need; they let us know something is wrong. Something needs to be corrected, made right, so we can go on living the way we should. Now pleasures, are they opposites of pains? Entirely different than a warning notice of some necessary correction? Are they then a notice of something done correct. A sort of message that says, “Hey Chris, you are doing everything right. This is why you are experiencing this, Keep at it.” A beautiful sunrise, a delightful meal (after a long hard days work might I add), sensual enjoyment. Are these gifts for behaving correctly? I don’t know.) Where was I? Oh, yes. Writing about how tired I was. I’m o.k. I suppose because I’ve never really endured real suffering, physically, that I call this physical suffering. For is not our greatest moment of pain used, or which should be used, to measure our current status? It should be. Or it helps me. Whenever I am tired of running, I think to how in lifeguard training they made me run far beyond what I thought I was capable of running. This experience of immense pain was groundbreaking distances for me, so whenever I now run, it is a piece of cake compared to that lifeguard running experience at Huguenot Park. However, as that memory is becoming more faded, I am becoming less concerned with how it felt then, and more concerned with how I feel now. It is good to be pressed to your limits and then beyond, in order to know you can do it right now. You have already overcome that thought, that doubt, Can I really make it? Once you know you can really make it. You can run the race with ease, even though you are still suffering. The ease on your mind is indescribably important when you are facing tough situations. It allows you to do it with peace. You get used to the suffering where it does not bother you anymore, and in time the suffering seems to decrease and greater enjoyment is found in the midst.

I can compare knowing, without any hint of doubt, that you can make it with trusting Jesus Christ. When you are really trusting Him, not just a little bit or a lot, but with all of your heart and not depending on your own understanding, I find I am able to have great peace inside of me. Now, if you trusted God 100% there would be no room for doubt. No room for error. There would be no uncertainties and absolutely no worries. This would be wonderful to live like this. No worries about tomorrow. For tomorrow will work itself out because God is taking care of it. Now I do not mean being lazy, oh course you work as hard as you can. But seek the Lord in all you do and He will direct your paths. Now, if we all really trusted God, 100%, we would have great eternal peace because there would be no anxieties within us. :) Wouldn’t that be nice? Well that is the way God intended us to go through life. Trusting Him. Really trusting Him. Not just saying we do, but really trusting Him and having no doubts in the back of our minds because we know God has got it. Well, I have tasted that from time to time and would like to Live my life like that. I think it all starts with fearing the LORD, and that starts with gaining wisdom, and that starts with reading Proverbs everyday like a good little boy and growing up to be Christ like. A Christian. A real Christian. Not a lazy, insecure, doubting, feeble Christian. (I direct all of these comments on me, please do not feel that I am projecting this to the outside world, though I do believe there are similarities here and there and I am not alone in this.) Trusting in the power of God. Not thinking we are like God and can do his job. Believing that He will take care us, and that He will really do it. That is neat. That is how I want to Live. I’m working on it. Are you?? God’s so cool. Infinite He is. Endless topics of conversation and endless areas of Life. All is well in God’s hands. I am very glad to be there once again. Is escape possible?? I won’t get into that. Goodnight. I Love Y’all. Take care, Chris